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Today is my last day

The days are long and tiresome. My hands are small and soft, wrinkly from too much time in the bath. My eyes have no more tears. No more make up stained faces. It has all been erased and washed away like someone’s old memories. They are etched in my trunk hidden underneath to keep them safe. My heart moved on a while ago but my mind took it's time to catch up. But now it's free. Today is my last day. And then the thoughts of you will come any longer. I'm sad but only for a while. It will pass just as seasons change. And  I'm  off to do all of those things I couldn't do while we were two. My new life is waiting and I can't hold on any more and neither can you. 'Why do we sacrifice so much energy to our art? Not in order to teach others but to learn with them what our existence, our organism, our personal and unrepeatable experience have to give us; to learn to break down the barriers which surround us and to free ourselves from the breaks which hold us b

But now it's time to stop and I'm saying goodbye

The demands are immense. They come from every angle and there is nothing I can do to stop them. Who knew that so many things required so much attention. I've never really needed you I always thought that I did. But I guess that was when I wasn't myself and didn't take the time to listen to what I wanted. I'm stronger than I realise and its happening now. All in good time. I always saw this as one of my downfalls but maybe it's one of my strongest weapons. I give and give and give. But now its time to STOP. I'm not letting them take any more. My hands reach out for the leaves. I love the way they fall through my fingers. The old ones are the best. I'm not for you anymore. I've given enough and I'm sorry if for you that doesn't seem appealing but that's the way it has to be. You'll understand one day and maybe we can talk then. Or maybe not but either way I'm saying goodbye.