The dust settles in my mind

I am everything to you and this is something else. You can feel it deep within your bones. It is a feeling, so the others can't see it. This is the funny thing so many have tried to avoid the feelings. We are always winning in what we want. Because we come back to self and heal the things that are calling out to us. We feel the feelings and move on. We keep moving forward in ways that are new and only for us. The others could not reach these levels of depth. It's not a judgement just the way things are. Age has treated us well if you think of it. Timing is a beautiful. It can be a wondrous thing. She is out there and she is waiting for us. I promise you I will keep your little heart safe. It's not that your heart is little, its more expansive that anything I can imagine that's why you chose us. It's just that it feels delicate, not that you are delicate but to me your heart is delicate and I want to treat it gently as that's what you deserve to be treated in way

I am reaching out and falling down. You are standing waiting to be told. The abyss is embracing me exactly as I always wanted it to . We are the real ones falling in the cracks between what everyone else thinks to be true. I am falling as you are catching and we are never the same following this moment. I take a breath and let it all go. The trees are swaying in the breeze in a way that is different to the rest. We are different and yet the same. That old things I like to say. I have known you all my life and yet we have come together again just when things were right. It needed to be this way in which we don't understand but feel it in our bones. We wish the others well and thank them for everything they did. Lets play the music from our childhoods and sing quietly as we sit in our beautiful house and look out at the garden. We are watching and she is playing and happy. The joy is infectious and this is how its meant to be. We have waited a lifetime and I wish it could have happen

The feeling of inertia filters through everything. Clouding what I know to be true. I can feel in the distance. Joy is hiding out and on its way to me and to you. We have something special that I can’t feel with the others. I want it to be you, always you. My hands are feeling how light this feels in my heart, like its right. We just fit. Its simple and yet so precious. It can not easily be replicated. I hold my breath and avoid the day as a way to honour what we have. To live in my mind of all the times we have felt this way and continue to do so. I’m looking towards our future together, we are holding hands and running across the sand into the distance. We have many things ahead of us and I don't want to let it go. 

Letting go. To make space for it all to be allowed. Space for the new to emerge and bloom like castles in the sand. Your face looks like mine and I whisper across the water to you. Wait you will find me there. Glistening, my eyes are wide and open welcoming you into a space I have reserved. A special kind of space thats not meant for the others. We will make great things together along with the moon. You will hold my hand and its like its always been this way. Your heart is safe with me. We treasure it all and hold on lightly. There is room for us in every place we find ourselves in. I can hear your song softly in the background as my heart beats a little faster at the thought of you