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Seeing beyond it all

The fire burns away in the background and we sit and talk about everything and nothing at all. So much is going on behind the scenes. The plans are in the making and we are ready for it. We are seeing beyond it all, the everyday things. You talk and see me in a different way. We are surrounded by it all. Its good good and inspiration emerges. We take a deep breath in and relax into it all. The water reaches us in all the places it missed before. We dip our toes in and there is a knowing. This life is made for us. My fingers reach outwards and clasp yours. Lets begin again and again. I will always hold the goodness in my hearts and hands.

In another life time

You are in my dreams always, I like to visit you there, in the abyss where time stops and starts and makes all the difference. I am treasuring myself more these days in a way that I could never do before. I am wishing you back to life but that time will never come. Maybe in another life time we will come back to together. It’s a shame we never got to meet for real. I talk to you regardless and the trees also hear my secrets in a way that you used to do.

We become something else. We are free

We are here together yet separate. Together in all the things that are needed but we are free. More free than we have ever been. This is what we have both always needed. I am holding you up yet letting you be who you need to be in all the moments. These moments matter more than you realise. Like when I brush my hands slowly near your face, gently does it but necessary. I send you that knowing sign that I am falling all over again. Falling and letting go into the new things that are emerging each and every day. Times have changed and we are here. In the thick of it. The wilderness holds us. We are standing on the edge of something. We are yet to know what. But deep down we have always known. We embrace it all. Gently and softly we step forward. I am riding my bicycle in my dreams and you are there smiling away holding everything in your hands. You reach out and we become everything else. My dreams are made of everything I need. You brought sandwiches the ones I really like. You think of

Not on the Edge

I am everything to you and this is something else. You can feel it deep within your bones. It is a feeling, so the others can't see it. This is the funny thing so many have tried to avoid the feelings. We are always winning in what we want. Because we come back to self and heal the things that are calling out to us. We feel the feelings and move on. We keep moving forward in ways that are new and only for us. The others could not reach these levels of depth. It's not a judgement just the way things are. Age has treated us well if you think of it. Timing is a beautiful. It can be a wondrous thing. She is out there and she is waiting for us. I promise you I will keep your little heart safe. It's not that your heart is little, its more expansive that anything I can imagine that's why you chose us. It's just that it feels delicate, not that you are delicate but to me your heart is delicate and I want to treat it gently as that's what you deserve to be treated in way

We are the real ones

I am reaching out and falling down. You are standing waiting to be told. The abyss is embracing me exactly as I always wanted it to . We are the real ones falling in the cracks between what everyone else thinks to be true. I am falling as you are catching and we are never the same following this moment. I take a breath and let it all go. The trees are swaying in the breeze in a way that is different to the rest. We are different and yet the same. That old things I like to say. I have known you all my life and yet we have come together again just when things were right. It needed to be this way in which we don't understand but feel it in our bones. We wish the others well and thank them for everything they did. Lets play the music from our childhoods and sing quietly as we sit in our beautiful house and look out at the garden. We are watching and she is playing and happy. The joy is infectious and this is how its meant to be. We have waited a lifetime and I wish it could have happen

I can feel in the distance

The feeling of inertia filters through everything. Clouding what I know to be true. I can feel in the distance. Joy is hiding out and on its way to me and to you. We have something special that I can’t feel with the others. I want it to be you, always you. My hands are feeling how light this feels in my heart, like its right. We just fit. Its simple and yet so precious. It can not easily be replicated. I hold my breath and avoid the day as a way to honour what we have. To live in my mind of all the times we have felt this way and continue to do so. I’m looking towards our future together, we are holding hands and running across the sand into the distance. We have many things ahead of us and I don't want to let it go. 

There is room for us in every place we find ourselves in

Letting go. To make space for it all to be allowed. Space for the new to emerge and bloom like castles in the sand. Your face looks like mine and I whisper across the water to you. Wait you will find me there. Glistening, my eyes are wide and open welcoming you into a space I have reserved. A special kind of space thats not meant for the others. We will make great things together along with the moon. You will hold my hand and its like its always been this way. Your heart is safe with me. We treasure it all and hold on lightly. There is room for us in every place we find ourselves in. I can hear your song softly in the background as my heart beats a little faster at the thought of you

Hold my hand and call my name

The petals are covering you in every way. You smile shyly like it is the first time. I can hear everything I need to. The forest is green as you would expect. Your eyes are looking my way again and and I feel something changed. You are making your way back to me. There is no need to forget, lets hold all our memories and embrace then as they have brought us here. We can swim if needs be but we are on our way back to where we belong. Something has changed so this will be better than the last and we know for sure we are real in every sense of the word. Hold my hand and call my name. You are everything I was always looking for. Lets make dinner and dance in the kitchen. I rest easy knowing you are there, my hand reaches for you in the dark and we are safe in here. And then dawn comes and takes you away again. I wish for more time as always I’m left with a bitter taste of wanting in my mouth. I know you will be back once again. I wait patiently till the moment arrives and takes my breath a

Tracey & George are on the edge of other peoples lives

  A story I started writing ages ago... here is a snapshot of the work in progress.   Tracey & George are on the edge of other people’s lives By Lauren Hart (copyright 2021)     The water is dripping incessantly and you can not face the day. It’s another day, another problem you do not wish to face. But it all changed yesterday when you gave her that look. She has lost herself somewhere along the way. Was it whilst backpacking across America, climbing Mount Fuji or just walking through the leaves in the local park? She always felt as though she was on the edge and you were always running after her but never quite reaching. It hurts to remember this now. But one day the pain will fade and the laughter from childhood will return again. You are a wonder but never quite realised your power.   Tracey is sitting on a bench ready to meet the love of her life but gets up and decides to leave at the very last minute. She had arrived early but couldn't wait any longer to see if today was

I am with you now

 I am holding you up in my mind.  Are we ever free to be who we want or need to be? I am sure you know this and I wish to whisper this over and over with you in my mind. I am always speaking to you. You may have long since forgotten by I have not. I don't think I will ever forget you. This is important to say somehow even if you don't know it. I am running towards rather than away from all that we want. She is looking up at me with a questioning smile and I like you all over again. I am reminded of all the special moments, lets hold hands and run along the bridge and jump into the water together yet separate. The water surrounds us filling in the spaces in between. I am with you now. Don't let me go.

Back where you belong

We are ready to face the day, together yet separate. This is the meaning behind the things we do not see. I am sensing these things out. Emerging through the cracks in the ceiling they come to us like fireflies in the distance. I am distanced sometimes with you. The things that scare us are what make us whole in the end. Is it the end or the beginning this is a familiar thing to us and them. Or is it you and me or perhaps we? We is a thing I like, It means more than the two of us, no one is fading in the background to allow us to exist. We all have seats at the table and we are high enough to see. I can see all that is true even if you want to turn away from this. I am not wishing to blank out moments of our lives. I want to see it all and be there in it all with us. The three of us, hold hands and I know this is how it is meant to be. The whispers in the distance of the waves of the trees and all that surrounds us. We are living near the water and we all are real. In that way that not

There is something

There is something emerging whilst the trees protect us. They hold our secrets lightly. My hands are reaching out to all the stories of our lives. The excitement bubbles as we share our songs with each other. There is a sense of matching the words we speak and those we do not. The actions we take are all in line with everything we want. We openly share exactly the way it is. The comfort has no bounds and I wrap you up in my dreams and you are always smiling.