Starting over

Starting over in an attempt to find you again. The loneliness takes cover. My ears are ringing again and I can't hear you anymore. I am out at sea and nothing is reaching me. I have to remain strong and make my way back to you. I will overcome these things that hold me back and return new and fresh in a way I think you will like. I know you have stopped thinking of me often, this saddens my heart more than most.  I can feel it in my bones that you no longer look at me in the same way. The way you are facing seems to be coming up against everything I thought would keep us together. I am holding on for one last time. Kiss me under the covers and lets hide like we used to do. I will hide your name and pretend we are not who we are supposed to be. This is music to my ears. I will catch you when you fall and be waiting for you always at the bottom or is it top? Come back to me and whisper our secret code or send it across the sea. The boats has stopped coming and turned to face someone else. I am hoping this is not the same for you.