I was brave

I am moving from one thing to another and you are there in the background. I not sure if it is real anymore. This sense of things is funny somehow. Today marks a day which we will never have again but I will remember I was brave. This is important to me now. There will be more on this in days that are yet to happen. Doing the things I have always wanted without checking to see if they are looking. There are things that we do and that change all the things we don't. There is always a choice and then another. We are never stuck and my arms reach out and I grasp the truth. I hear the breeze in the distant. Its getting closer and so are you. I am waiting in the place where you left me way back when. As within, so without

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