The dust settles in my mind

We have lost the birds. It has been leading to this moment in a way no one could imagine. We are here but you are there, we can see you, we can reach out to you but we can not touch any longer. This is the way it happens in dreams. Every step you get closer it is moves further and further away and you never actually make it there. I have closed my eyes and I am whispering into distance. You will find me one day amongst the trees I have moved far away for the life we lived together. I think its best for us now. I send you love across the border but know we will be together maybe in the next life.

I am living in between the story of our lives. I haven't quite made it yet. The things in which we cannot see are calling us again and we are being pulled further towards everything that is true. Its a feeling of a deeper knowing. We are turning everything around and I am on the fence. It is a place I know quite well. I lost a shoe over one side and threw the other one just so they has each other for company. I decided it would be better to leave them behind. I am choosing you over them. I am free of all that no longer needs me. Hold me in between the moments of our lives. These are the ones I dream of. We are in it now. Our connections allow us to reach far and wide. I am knocking on the door hoping you will be on the other side. I have been waiting till the right moment to tell you, but as we all know patience it not something that comes easy for me. I will be brave and share my secrets but only with you.

Our dreams deserve to be heard? From all angles it makes sense from the pit of my inner knowing. I can feel it down deep deep down. Sometimes it is hidden by many things that you would least expect to be down there. Its like a magicians trick, sometimes you can not believe your eyes. It is often the things that appear so easily and obvious that are hiding the truth. I don't like hiding any more. I am not one to do these things that cause me pain. I am sad to see you haven't made it this far but I wish you well and see you from afar. Wishing wells are marvellous  things I look down and see someone else's face reflecting back at me. It is  a dream that has gone too far. I am in the distance waiting patiently to be seen and heard again 

We think we are alone. We are not, we never are alone as we think we are. If you speak up and share your calling the birds will come and save you. Even if your wings are clipped they can't stop us now. The bandages have come undone and things have been ripped apart for you to emerge and return to you again. I have always wanted you that way. Just as you are, there is no need for you to be anyone but you. That's what makes this life so worthwhile we are wonderful just the way we are. I can hear the birds they have found us in the distance and no one else is around to see we are being revealed once again. We are smiling at each other and give each other a wink and know this is true. My hand finds it way to you under the cover and I hear your breath and we sleep soundly once again.

I am moving from one thing to another and you are there in the background. I not sure if it is real anymore. This sense of things is funny somehow. Today marks a day which we will never have again but I will remember I was brave. This is important to me now. There will be more on this in days that are yet to happen. Doing the things I have always wanted without checking to see if they are looking. There are things that we do and that change all the things we don't. There is always a choice and then another. We are never stuck and my arms reach out and I grasp the truth. I hear the breeze in the distant. Its getting closer and so are you. I am waiting in the place where you left me way back when. As within, so without

I am in the place where I knew it would happen one day. There is silence all around us and the streets are empty apart from the names of people that have gone by. We wish them well and thank them. We move on, but we are different now. What went before is distant memory now. Echos fill up the room and fade just as fast. Silence becomes everything that we know. It is peaceful here. I can reach out and know you are there. We have waited all our lives for this moment back before we met many times. Lifetime after lifetime I choose you and never will let you down. It is important in times such as these we have each other all over again. I feel joyful in a way you will never know. This is it, lets dive right in and never look back 

I am here and nowhere to be found. Everywhere and no where. These contractions are what follow us around like a shadow we don't want to see so we keep looking the other way. You are on the side of her and I can't face you anymore. My voice can not be heard. I am invisible. My face is glowing these days. I am reaching out to the ones who know the truth. These days are saving me like the patterns I used to trace along your face. I can no longer remember the way you were before. The loneliness doesn't knock at my door any longer and joy fills my heart. These days treat me well. In a way that no one believed was possible. I always believed and held out hope it would come. This ones for me.