The dust settles in my mind

I am everything to you and this is something else. You can feel it deep within your bones. It is a feeling, so the others can't see it. This is the funny thing so many have tried to avoid the feelings. We are always winning in what we want. Because we come back to self and heal the things that are calling out to us. We feel the feelings and move on. We keep moving forward in ways that are new and only for us. The others could not reach these levels of depth. It's not a judgement just the way things are. Age has treated us well if you think of it. Timing is a beautiful. It can be a wondrous thing. She is out there and she is waiting for us. I promise you I will keep your little heart safe. It's not that your heart is little, its more expansive that anything I can imagine that's why you chose us. It's just that it feels delicate, not that you are delicate but to me your heart is delicate and I want to treat it gently as that's what you deserve to be treated in way...

I am reaching out and falling down. You are standing waiting to be told. The abyss is embracing me exactly as I always wanted it to . We are the real ones falling in the cracks between what everyone else thinks to be true. I am falling as you are catching and we are never the same following this moment. I take a breath and let it all go. The trees are swaying in the breeze in a way that is different to the rest. We are different and yet the same. That old things I like to say. I have known you all my life and yet we have come together again just when things were right. It needed to be this way in which we don't understand but feel it in our bones. We wish the others well and thank them for everything they did. Lets play the music from our childhoods and sing quietly as we sit in our beautiful house and look out at the garden. We are watching and she is playing and happy. The joy is infectious and this is how its meant to be. We have waited a lifetime and I wish it could have happen...

The feeling of inertia filters through everything. Clouding what I know to be true. I can feel in the distance. Joy is hiding out and on its way to me and to you. We have something special that I can’t feel with the others. I want it to be you, always you. My hands are feeling how light this feels in my heart, like its right. We just fit. Its simple and yet so precious. It can not easily be replicated. I hold my breath and avoid the day as a way to honour what we have. To live in my mind of all the times we have felt this way and continue to do so. I’m looking towards our future together, we are holding hands and running across the sand into the distance. We have many things ahead of us and I don't want to let it go. 

Letting go. To make space for it all to be allowed. Space for the new to emerge and bloom like castles in the sand. Your face looks like mine and I whisper across the water to you. Wait you will find me there. Glistening, my eyes are wide and open welcoming you into a space I have reserved. A special kind of space thats not meant for the others. We will make great things together along with the moon. You will hold my hand and its like its always been this way. Your heart is safe with me. We treasure it all and hold on lightly. There is room for us in every place we find ourselves in. I can hear your song softly in the background as my heart beats a little faster at the thought of you

The petals are covering you in every way. You smile shyly like it is the first time. I can hear everything I need to. The forest is green as you would expect. Your eyes are looking my way again and and I feel something changed. You are making your way back to me. There is no need to forget, lets hold all our memories and embrace then as they have brought us here. We can swim if needs be but we are on our way back to where we belong. Something has changed so this will be better than the last and we know for sure we are real in every sense of the word. Hold my hand and call my name. You are everything I was always looking for. Lets make dinner and dance in the kitchen. I rest easy knowing you are there, my hand reaches for you in the dark and we are safe in here. And then dawn comes and takes you away again. I wish for more time as always I’m left with a bitter taste of wanting in my mouth. I know you will be back once again. I wait patiently till the moment arrives and takes my breath a...

 I am holding you up in my mind.  Are we ever free to be who we want or need to be? I am sure you know this and I wish to whisper this over and over with you in my mind. I am always speaking to you. You may have long since forgotten by I have not. I don't think I will ever forget you. This is important to say somehow even if you don't know it. I am running towards rather than away from all that we want. She is looking up at me with a questioning smile and I like you all over again. I am reminded of all the special moments, lets hold hands and run along the bridge and jump into the water together yet separate. The water surrounds us filling in the spaces in between. I am with you now. Don't let me go.

We are ready to face the day, together yet separate. This is the meaning behind the things we do not see. I am sensing these things out. Emerging through the cracks in the ceiling they come to us like fireflies in the distance. I am distanced sometimes with you. The things that scare us are what make us whole in the end. Is it the end or the beginning this is a familiar thing to us and them. Or is it you and me or perhaps we? We is a thing I like, It means more than the two of us, no one is fading in the background to allow us to exist. We all have seats at the table and we are high enough to see. I can see all that is true even if you want to turn away from this. I am not wishing to blank out moments of our lives. I want to see it all and be there in it all with us. The three of us, hold hands and I know this is how it is meant to be. The whispers in the distance of the waves of the trees and all that surrounds us. We are living near the water and we all are real. In that way that not...